Would you see then, what I see now?

I woke up from a nap an hour and 32 minutes ago. My body still hasn't adjusted to being awake from the 45 minute slumber that consumed me. Sure, my right arm has stopped tingling from being shoved under my body without room to breathe, but that's only because I haven't stopped moving it since I woke up. Either way, I have a feeling I'm becoming dependent on the semi unconscious world of sleep. Last night, it took an hour and a half after I layed down to actually fall into sleep, until there was some yelling in the house that shook me awake for another 2 hours. I was three inches from pretending I had back pain so I could take some p.m. medicine and call it a day. Or night, rather. There were many things that created an unpleasant atmosphere for me last night, but the only thing that matters is my brain activity. Putting aside the humidity of my room and the mattress pad that won't stop spilling me off the edge of the bed along with it's down feathered innards, I was completely racked with ideas. I like it, but only during the day, please. Not when I'm trying to rest. That's why I've been frequenting the napping scenario so much this summer. My brain tells me that it's better to consider the happenings of that day rather than who to meet in my dreams.

As the sun was setting last night, the sky turned magical. All day, we were stuck with the drab gray sky. Maybe a slight hint of dark gray came about every once and a while when a storm threatened to explode. It wasn't until about eight thirty that the gray went away and the sky worked up the most intense orange I'd ever seen. A bright orange that turned the green grass into an illuminated brown. It turned the red car across the street into a fire engine. The newly paved road separating my townhouse from the ones across the way glittered with the orange lava burst. Even the kids running around in sandals throwing hula hoops into the air glowed as the surreal light made it's way onto their tiny cheeks. But as time continued and the sun was making room for the moon, there had still been some dark blue and gray storm clouds that forgot to vanish. So as this synthetic orange color blew up the sky and mixed with the blue clouds, I couldn't help but to compare what I was seeing to a bruise. I was looking up at the world's largest kneecap with the biggest Oowwiiee known to man! Maybe the kneecap hit into one of those damn corners of the table, and what I was seeing in the sky was the result. A tie dyed contusion of the healing process every great bruise endures. And as I looked up from my bedroom window, I got to see first hand. It was pure and beautiful. For the 12 minutes it stayed, anyway.

I miss my roomie. It's been 26 days since I've seen her. I wish we were rooming together next year. She'll pretty much no matter what happens, always be my roomie. Even in 30 years when we meet up in her trailer park neighborhood, with Gretta and Babs for our monthly book discussion, I'll still refer to her as Roomie. And when her children get knocked up and have babies, I'll tell them how great 2008 and 2009 were when we paraded down the hallway in our bras and underwear (Oh wait..that didn't happen!) or smacked the ceiling with all our power to let our upstairs neighbors know that it's not proper etiquette to have bowling tournaments in their dorm room at 3 in the morning. (that definitely happened!). She's probably the most well rounded person I've ever known, mostly because she doesn't exercise (i keed i keed. you are jacked!) but she also knows who she is and I love that. SAMantha ya friggin dork! You smell like a turnip bulb <3

Rise Up With Fists!!!

Current location: On my uncomfortable bed at home. I had to venture home for the weekend so that the family and I could celebrate seester's 21st birthday. We celebrated. And now I have nothing to do. That's not true...I have homework that I should be completing. But my lumpy bed is telling me that I should just wait until the morning to look over my English things or consider starting my philosophy paper. My 3 point perspective drawings can wait until I return to my delightful dorm room tomorrow afternoon. It is so incredibly windy out right now. I love it. I forgot how much I love weather. Earlier, the pretty flowers blew off of neighboring trees in backyards creating speckles of white everywhere. It was beautiful. And as night was approaching yesterday, the clouds grew very dense and dark. That's one of my favorite parts about this time of year. There is no telling if a dangerous storm is lurking or if the sky is just preparing for lights out.

So as I sit here, the only things keeping me from attempting to fall asleep are my headache that's becoming more of an entire body ache, LaLa's squish on my thigh, and anticipation. I wait a lot. I don't really mind waiting because the last few times I waited, good things happened. But what exactly am I waiting for anyway?... I guess just the constant surprise and butterflies. Why are those "lalalalala" feelings called butterflies? Why can't they be called fireflies or dragonflies? Why do they have to be insects at all....it's kind of creepy to imagine a mature caterpillar flying around in your body anyway. Great things are happening for me. Finally. And if I have to deal with the insects in my tummy, then so be it!

Things to remember:
-Stay weird. People will treasure you more that way.
-The 70's were an awesome time. If I could pretend I wasn't born in 1990, I would pretend I was born in the mid-50's. That way Woodstock would have happened for me as well as the hip hoppin' groovy days! jesus.
-Easter candy can take away the blues. and reds and purples.

Joanna Newsom - Sprout and the Bean :) You go, girl!