Let's say hi instead of bye!

So, I'm officially a sophomore in college now. How weird is that? I remember the first time I was able to refer to myself as a "sophomore" when I was in high school. I don't really like that term. There isn't anything successful about the word. All it's saying is you aren't the little baby anymore, but you still have a while before you will actually be able to say that you have accomplished anything in its entirety. I guess it's cool that the incoming students will look up to me (naturally..bahahaha!) but it's not all that special. It's progress though. So that counts, I guess.

Here's a fun fact: I don't like to say goodbye to people. Last night and this morning were incredibly difficult for me to get through. Every time I would see someone who was special to me in some way, I couldn't really find it in myself to split. I spent an incredibly long time in the RA booth keeping Brandon company, even though I don't know how much I was welcomed. I'm sure I was appreciated though, cause I bought a buttload of food and shared it with multiple people. There were long, drawn out hugs and gentle words last night that I really appreciated. So much that when I returned back to my room during the early morning hours, I began to get a bit soggy. The tears didn't really start until after Roomie left to go continue her drunk fun. Then I became extremely melancholy and judgemental toward myself. Which leads me to my next point, I am disappointed in my lack of action(s). If I had to compare myself to any one literary character, it would have to be Hamlet. "To be or not to be?" I have such a horrible time with making moves, so much that I completely freeze up and ruin golden opportunities. I can't tell at this moment, but I might have let a premium situation slip away because I have such a friggin' hard time telling this guy how I feel. Now there are many miles in between us as well as many days, hours, and seconds. Why is it that just when I'm getting more comfortable, a 3 month long gap has to occur?

My room has been slightly rearranged. New additions to my room include this gorgeous dresser that was given to my mom. It's a beautiful shade of dull, vintage blue that works perfectly with my obnoxious yellow walls. I also put my dorm sheets and covers on my bed at home, which makes me feel a bit happier cause I feel like I'm right back at school. I'm laying on my bologna and cheese sandwich pillow sculpture that I made in 11th grade. It's comfortable but every time I shift positions, the lettuce made with newspaper crinkles and startles the cat. hahaha!

I think it's time I introduced you. Everyone, this is Danielle. She is one of the most incredible youtubers in the entire world. Her music is pure bliss and she is hilarious. This was the first video I ever watched of her and after about 56 replays, I learned the words to this song. It's called 'Ode to Optophobia'. Not only is Danielle Ate the Sandwich clever, but she is super talented. also...you should subscribe cause every video she makes is full of wit and humor as well as insightful, homemade lyrics. DANIELLE ATE THE SANDWICH :)